malaise. melancholy.

sometimes you just have to say...

New York

i think a trip might be in order soon.

i wouldn't mind spending the afternoon laying under the pink trees that are starting to bloom and enjoying the snowlike fall of the white blossoms. i might be grumpy, but i can't stop appreciating the beauty of a moment.

black balloon

this video is kind of creepy, and i'm not sure i'd put this on my ultimate life mixtape, but i'm loving [the sound of] this song and i wanted to share. heard it on the good wife from feb16. love that show. matt now loves that show. life is good.

worry. happy.

“Do you remember the things you were worrying about a year ago? How did they work out? Didn’t you waste a lot of fruitless energy on account of most of them? Didn’t most of them turn out all right after all?”  Dale Carnegie (via the messes i make)

2009. finding a job in within 5.5 hours of home.
2008. finding a job and apartment in new york.
2007. finding a job in bay city.
2006. ending work at delphi. enjoying the summer, getting ready to travel with mom.
2005. being newly single.

well that's not what i excpected it to be. i didn't realize for the past three springs i have been job hunting. or that this is my first fully employed spring of my 24 years. this is my first spring when big changes aren't taking place. i'm trying to find a balance of work, friendship and self.

when are you happiest?

some answers from friends:

When I'm by myself being quiet. 

When I'm on an adventure, learning something new, discovering. 

When my kitty is so happy to see me, after an ass kicking workout, shopping and snuggling with someone special.

I absolutely identify with all those, but most of all by myself, being quiet. At least, right now, I think that's what I need to focus on the most. Because I much as I think I know what I want, sometimes I realize that I'm not really sure. I'm pretty good at doing that and think I need to start making more of it.

fall in love

I saw this on my main page of facebook from a film networking acquaintance. He says, "In NYC and la I fall in love 20x a day I am fickle that way in Milwaukee once or twice a year" I'm happy to report I can fall in love with Michigan the way I would when I saw something special (or ordinary) in New York. and i do it just as often. I'm going to start documenting it more. i promise.

kudos

love, kate

M-A-Y

happy tuesday. pink tights and a pretty dress make katy a happy girl. it's the little things that i find happiness in and without them, well life just wouldn't be as great. 

it's the fourth day of may already, but it took me awhile to nail down just three words for the month (remember i did this back in february, maybe a reflection post would be nice.)

MAY

myself, awesome, art journal, yard

myself: you know, i'm a pretty selfish person and i mean this in the best of ways. i stick with what makes me happy, what makes me feel comfortable, what i know. but what i want to accomplish for myself this month is to improve. to improve my ability to carry on a conversation without relating it to myself, just listening. and to really focus on eating right and moving my body. just starting in small ways is all i can ask for now.

 

awesome: eh, kind of a cop-out word, but who doesn't want life to be awesome? i really want a well rounded, awesome month.

art journal: i bought acrylics and two fancy pens. now i just have to follow the prompts and see where this can lead me. yes i signed up for another elsie (&rachel) class! now i just need to get my but in gear! hehe

yard: eek! there is so much to do. weeds to be pulled, dead to be cut away, dreams to be had underneath the white blossoms of a crab apple tree. i have to be patient because it is just may. i can't do any planting, but i can get it ready. i can plan.

love, kate

beautiful new york day!

Yesterday was an absolutely gorgeous day and I was excited to take some time and go to Central Park for a long walk and people watching.

A friend recently asked, what do you do in Central Park? What isn't there to do?! There were people with families, others just wandering around, some were roller skating and dancing! The Sheep Meadow was jammed packed with people, I wouldn't have dared to try and find a place to lay out but more people were.

It was a beautiful day, the weather was perfect. The sun felt amazing on my pale skin, I'm happy to report no sunburn, and the air was warm and it felt like it wrapped around your body. It was an awesome day out enjoying the weather and the people.


The Reservoir, in the photo above, was probably my favorite part of the day. The water was so calm and peaceful, it just put me ease. It was a wonderful feeling to have after my long walk and a reminder of how much I enjoy the water. I really need to make an effort to get to see the water more, it really is so close. (Just a mile in one direction and a half mile in the other!)